So long to the Marveled One

For almost 8 years I’ve been friends with someone who seemed to be and was a very interesting and alright individual. He was very knowledgeable, intelligent, honest and cool. He seemed to be someone that I could be friends with until the end of time, that is until about year 4 of our friendship. I started noticing and being bothered things that that I would normally brush off. He would do and say things that would irritate and infuriate me. He felt he was right every time he said something and then have some smart-as…. alec comment. He always complained when thing didn’t go his way, especially on his birthday and he always had a way of poking and prodding someone for answers even if they or that person didn’t want to give any.

I actually meet him again for after 7 months (he kept track) to see if I would be moved to change my mind about keeping him as a friend. Well… I should start by saying that the reason that it was seven months was because for that long I wanted to punch him  or put him in a submission maneuver. I basically kept my distance away from him because I felt if I was near him that I would do something that I would regret. Now back to the present, I wasn’t moved to keep him as a friend because he was as irritating as ever, even cause a friend of mine to cry. So I made the decision that I didn’t want him to be a part of my life any longer. I expect to see him from time to time at conventions, but outside of that, not at all. He was a good friend at times, but overall he was selfish, manipulative, oblivious and insensitive. I can’t speak for anyone else that knows him, but for myself, this is the right decision for me.

I didn’t want to have to do this

I Will not Bleed

Greetings all! I think it’s been two months since I’ve last posted anything (being busy and laziness), but I do have something for you. That is the poem I finished last night that I titled “I Will not Bleed”. Please enjoy!

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I surrender myself to you
I do not wish to fight
Show me that you are who I know you to be

Look me in my eyes
Ready your weapon
I promise that I will not bleed

Use your tongue to pierce my heart
Open my eyes to your true self
Deliver to me your love

This is what I want my friend
Open up fresh wounds
We both shed tears

Decease your blows
No crimson floor
So little space between us

Collapsed into each others arms

A fire burns within and around us

A bond ever stronger

Extremely Brief Comic Con Indy Talk/ Making up of a Mistake

This past weekend the Indianapolis Convention Center hosted Comic Con for the second year in a row, so hopefully that means that it’ll be a mainstay convention for years to come. There was a bevy of celebrities, such as: Billy West, Carrie Fisher, Jason Momoa, Todd Haberkorn and Bryce Papenbrook among others.   I was able to go to for all three days (although I showed up late Friday and somewhat late Saturday) and enjoyed myself for the entire event. It also helps when you have free parking two out of three days as well leaving more money in my pocket to give to someone else lol. I’ll have to do another post about Comic Con as I have some important business to take care of in the morning, but I will give a bit of information of a different kind. In a previous post I (in not so many words) said that there was someone that I was interested in and wanted to ask them out because I felt that if I didn’t ask them then I would regret it. I decided to actually draw up some courage to ask this person out at Comic Con, but I didn’t do it. I saw her all three days, I had enough time to ask her and I almost ditched/ avoided someone just so I could ask her out, but that was thwarted. Hell, I was almost willing to make threats to a particular person in order to ask her out. However, my excuse for not getting it done is that I didn’t have the setting that I wanted. I basically wanted to have her alone (or an area where people weren’t paying too much attention), say what was on my heart, ask her out  and prepare for what her response would be. I allowed what I considered obstacles prevent me from asking her out and now I don’t know when I’m going to be able to see her in person again. One thing I don’t want to do is ask her over Facebook, that just feels too….. cheap and not personal. I could possible call her, but in all honesty, I really just want to look her in the eyes and ask.

“Emotional” Intelligence

While I feel that I am emotionally intelligent, I want to type about something a bit different. One thing that friends and mostly everyone who sees me more often than not will tell you that I don’t talk much. Now you may be thinking that if you don’t talk much how the hell do you have any friends? Personally I think it’s sex appeal….

, but in general it’s either we have something in common or that they think I’m an alright person. Back on topic, I don’t say much for several reasons, but should actually say something I’m usually relaxed, soft spoken and maybe slightly monotoned. However, on the contrary there aren’t too many friends that can say that they’ve seen me emotional unless it’s a game of UNO, but that’s something else. The reason I am mentioning that is because of something I’ve noticed over the years that whenever I go beyond my neutral (even-keeled/non-emotional) state, my vocabulary increases. Obviously I would have had to learn these words before hand, but I never really use… more advanced words in my neutral state. Another odd thing is that the words I use fit the emotion that I’m in. For example, I would never use the word eviscerate unless I was angry or worse. That’s just one example and normally no one is around when that happens, but that’s what happens to me when I’m inside my own head everyday.

As for the original meaning of emotional intelligence I do have an ability to sense others emotions, heck I was able to feel that a friend was fatigued before I texted her and let her know that I thought she might be feeling that way. After I sent it she said she had spent most of the day moving things and packing for a trip and that she was tired. Could be a coincidence though.